Old School

Epic and I mean this to the full extent of the word, EPIC day out today with Alexanderr. It had been almost 6 whole goddamn months since we had a proper day out together and this was a real smile maker.

Started with the usual stroll down town, followed by a catch up session at Far East filled with plenty and of new stories, past memories and future plans. Then we went up top for my favourite Beef Flied Lice. Yummmmmmmmmmy. Wipes drool away, oops. Anyway, went window shopping after and to my total amazement Alex still can shop like a girl. I mean that in a total complimental way. And Yes, I do realise complimental is not a word but it fits the situation perfectly.

"What to do, I dont know"

Cleopatra Step a-side

Took a trip to the National Museum today with Shikin, Zack & Kahar. I know, random right? But well equipped with a camera in one hand and a cigg in the other we went to look at the Egyptian Exhibit- It was filled with Hieroglyphiced scribes, Ancient Tombs & no duh, Mummies. Well Mummie- Singular! I wish i lived back in those times but as like a Queen. You know, all donned with gold and having perfect cat-eyed eyeliner. Everything was so beautiful. The myths, the sculptures, the Gods & all. No wonder Caesar was infatuated.

After the trip back to Ancient Egypt we went to the Paranakan Museum. Explored for a while whilst Shikin caused a major- MAJOR disturbance with her camera. LOL

Next came dinner at Pasta Mania followed by a total arse whooping at pool. Obviously the arse whoopin was not given by me for i sucked. Actually sucked is an absolute understatement in this case. Lets look at the facts. Games I played= 5, games I won= 2- Both won by default due to the boys potting the black ball accidentally. I'm British I should be the ultimate Goddess of Pool but no.

Basically fabulously random day.

Bleach

Today has truly been one of the best days i've had in a very long time. Yes DAY. I actually went out in the daytime. The sun was shining, the birds were chirping, the trees were...uhm...doing what trees do? Swaying i guess? Anyway i didnt really pay that much attention to the trees but thats not the point and i think im going off track, just a bit.

Met the ever wonderful, sarcastic, hilarious Ms Phiri today to have one last hangout before she leaves back to her South Africa. Sean joined too which was a great investment because he just got paid & so he decided that we were well worth his money. WOW. I just made me and Ruth sound like prostitutes ok. To be clear, me and ruth are not..i repeat..are not prostitutes and by 'well worth his money' I meant he paid for pretty much everything because we are like Fabulous?

We first just hung around town. Ran into my Alex =] Awwwwwwww Alex. We have just discovered our mutual love for Josh William Beech, ahh, sexiness connecting people everywhere. Anywho we went back to doing the usual things before we went to see Avatar at Cine. Who btw is damn sexy, (the blue one, not the white guy-even though they are the same guy. I think i have a thing for tall, lanky guys, either that or blue ones? oh i dont know. Maybe it's a new fetish of mine) Anywho, we hung more- contemplated getting fake tattoos- Sean, a Hello Kitty on his Ass and I, Lips on my neck. But realization of how stupid we would look hit us and we decided it might not be the best idea. So we decided to watch another movie, Sherlock Holmes down at The Cathay. Jude Law + Robert Downey Jr = AHMAFAKINGGODORGAZMZZZZTOTHEMAX. Afterwards, we said fair well to Sean Sugar Daddy and Ruth & I met up with Taz n his friend.

Ended the night by walking Ruth back to her hotel, said our final goodbyes and i got whizzed off home in a cab. At which point i was pretty shattered and ready to collapse in bed.

When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?

If I dont think about it, it wont affect me. Out of sight- out of mind, out of mind- out of emotion.

That's how it works right?

Hoe, Hoe, Hoe.

Vanity was always my favourite Sin

Glamour was always my favourite Weapon

Revenge was always my favourite Crime

Envy was always my favourite Poison

Love was always my favourite Hate

Fame was always my favourite Motive

It's quite strange how alone I feel. I've lost a lot of friends in the past but they never had an effect on my life so never did I give a second thought about it. But now i've lost friends that actually meant something to me. It's weird not to feel the security I once felt. It's actually quite scary. You're friend count doesn't mean anything.

Keep your Coins, I want Change.

If there is one thing I will never understand about you its how you always manage to reverse a situation and manage to either a) blame me for things, making you look like the innocent party and me look like I've just committed 2 murders, 3 bank robberies and a hit & run or b) convince yourself that you are right. Always have been, always are and always will be.

Another thing I noticed is that you're pretty good at making ideas look like they were all yours from the start and that i had nothing to do with them. Even thought they kinda were all 100% mine. Oh bloody hell, another one just came to me. Silly me how could I forget.. You believe you have the power to solve and control every situation, even though your idea of solving/controlling is to just say what you want and not let me have my say at all. Oh and why stop here, and this is a real kicker...ready? You have fully assured yourself that you actually know me. HA. Boy you don't know me, you have no idea about me.

Oh Holy Hell. Since we are on the topic and more reasons keep coming to me I would just like to say how it never ceases to amaze me how you can do ALL THE ABOVE in one phone call, i repeat, ONE phone call.

Brava Romeo.

Photographs

New Song Obsession.

Photographs
Rihannah ft Will.I.Am

Here’s a little story I’ve gotta tell
Bout this boy I know so well
Back in the day was cool and all
Fell in love, I fell in love
Thought he was the one for me
Other boys I could not see
And look what happened to our love
I’m like how could it be?

It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Boy you broke my heart and now I’m standing here
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Now all I got are these photographs

All I’ve got, all I’ve got
All I’ve got are these photographs
All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you

Now baby it’s killing me
I’m saying it’s killing me
The fact that you went around
Baby I’m falling down
I need me a remedy
Been looking for remedies
I need you to be around
Baby I’m hurting now
I know you’re a better man
When I was your girl
This land is a better land
When you’re in my world
Today will be better babe
If it were like yesterday
So happy and lovely hey, hey, hey

All I’ve got, all I’ve got
All I’ve got are these photographs
All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you

All I’ve got are these photographs
I remember when I used to make you laugh
I don’t wanna be stuck in the past
But you’re all that I have that I had
And I don’t wanna lose what we built this far
This is me and you, you’re my superstar
I’d give anything, baby here’s my heart
My heart, my heart…

(Will.i.am)
My heart don’t stop, my heart be beating over
My loving never stop, even though that it’s over
Girl I’ve been reminiscing when I play that Casanova
Way back when we was kissing on your granmomma’s sofa
Girl I got this lovey dovey o my photo album
I got them pictures back when I was rocking Calvin Klein
You had your Guess jeans on looking sexy, oh no
Girl why could it not be the one?

Why? Why? Why?
Why couldn't I be the one?
Why? Why? Why?
Why couldn’t you be the one?
Why? Why? Why?
Why couldn’t you be the one?
Why? Why? Why?

All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you
All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you, you, you,
Is nothing without you, you, you,
Is nothing without you

All I've got, is nothing without...

All I've got, is nothing without...

All I've got, all I've got are these photographs

Oh Whipped.

Jamie Oliver- Step aside. Nigella Lawson- Who needs ya? Bring on the magical kitchen wonders of Shikin, Julia & Kate.

Today was fan-cooking-tastic. The girls got together to make a meal for the guys and a spectacular meal too, even if i say so myself. Le Menu goes as followed.

Poison of Choice-Wine
First Course: Salad with marinated Calamari and Prawn, flambeed tomatoes and lemon.
Main: Linguine & Macaroni served with Pasta sauce, fried Dori fish and Parmesan cheese
Desert: Strawberries, blueberries & kiwi, served with melted chocolate and icing sugar. oh and you can't forget the whipped cream.

It was such a cute day, hanging with the girls in the afternoon. Food shopping @ Downtown east, cooking @ Shikins place then lastly ending up at Pasir ris park for a picnic with the boys. Photos are dread full so they will not be making an appearance on unkrypted any time soon. A little too much wine caused me to go a little loco- but in a merry way. After all it is the season to be jolly. ;]

Falalalala..lala..la..la

Roarrrr; I'm a lion.

Sunday was a very long & a very exhausting, but a truly good day out indeed. And by good I mean insanely hot, smelly and semi factual.

Had an early start at 9am and took an unexpected trip to the Singapore Zoo. I know, the Marshalls Day Out right? Who would have guessed my mother and father actually cared about el zoo? I was surprised myself until when upon leaving my mother said, im not going back there ever again-ever. Ahh well, I just like the Cats, Snakes & the embarrassment felt when you see animals mating..and you realise you parents are standing right next to you watching the same thing.

After the zoo, Adalayyyy came picked me up and we headed for dinner. I thought I would be absolutely amazing & pay. Thats right batchas, i paid, but adalayy put in a fiver. We went to lepak at the new cool hangout place Upper Pierce Reservoirs FTW. Went home and found my parents missing- later found out they were severely drunk & karaoke-ing.

Later on met up with Raul -could there be a hotter name? Bet you $10 you can't guess where we went. Starts with a P and ends with an ierce Reservoir. Hung with Barrons, Redbull & Nexts. Laid in the grass while helping Mr Bartender learn how to make a Missletoe-tini, Christmas Jones & a Red Rudolf.

Home. Bed. Sleep.

The letter.

Dear Taz,
Between Tabrij Ahmed Jobaer and You

Kate Hannah Marshall December 18 at 1:31am
I'm happy you can finally go and persue the right kind of love now. I just wish you would have told me sooner about everything that was going on. They say 'you don't know what you've got till its gone'. I hope you realise that I made a mistake and as soon as I lost you I realised and tried to get you back but it was too late and that's my problem-I have to live with it. You're a messed up guy and im a messed up girl. We have so many things going on with our lives right now and we have too many issues which clash. All I can do is wish you well. Good luck with your life- love, work, everything. But just promise me that you will change, start caring about other people and other people will care about you. Just don't mess with me, play around with me, lead me on with your actions and words because i will fall again but this time i wont be able to get back up. I guess the roles have reversed and I am fucked. Good luck,So long.Kate Marshall ♥

Zouk Out

Saturday Night- ZOUKOUT BITCHES.

10 hours of continuous Music, Drinks, Friends, Cigs & Sand. Ran into long lost people & missed out on seeing some long lost friends.

Started out the night by sitting in a taxi for an hour trying to get onto Sentosa closly followed by Champaign in the carpark, vodka on the void, bacardi on the boardwalk & beer on the beach.



After a while things got BUSY. Danced around in Wavehouse. Met a really nice guy & when to the restricted area x] pssh. DONT THINK NAUGHTY THOUGHTS. I'm a good girl. Faked a called to meet back with Shikin to go to Armin Van Buuren! Ran into Bakram- owwww yeah & Adam- pwahhhh & then the night went on..

Money is now extremely low meaning ima be MIA for a while, a LONG while, a LONG LONG while.

Open fire

I want your leather studded kiss in the sand.

I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it.

If you're stupid enough to walk away; I'm smart enough to let you go.

Main Entry: detestable
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: loathsome, abominable
Synonyms: abhorred, abhorrent, accursed, atrocious, awful, despicable, disgusting, execrable, godawful, grody, gross*, hateable, hateful, heinous, horrid, lousy, low-down, maggot, monstrous, obnoxious, odious, offensive, outrageous, repugnant, repulsive, revolting, rotten, shocking, sorry, vile

That's what you are. No, actually you're worse than detestable. You're the utter most selfish person I have ever met. Not only do you take advantage of people but you believe that the world solely revolves around you. Stringing people along until you need to use them. It's a simple case of 'use & abuse' & you're the epitome of it.

If you're Stupid enough to walk away; I'm smart enough to let you go

My Baby.

I gotst myself a new phone & let me just say, It is a real beauty.

Josh GODDAMN Beech

I realise i havn't said anything but;
Need i say more?

Looking Good is the Best revenge.

& so it shall be. What's done is done. What's gone is gone. Life doesn't stop for anyone. <3

Entwined

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine

Bad Romance.

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you're sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don’t wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Good Ol' British Humour.

KATE.MARSHALL. We need to meet up, it has been like years, i am getting withdrawl symptoms! What are you doing thursday? Nothing you say? Great! We are now meeting up at some point... And if you are in class i hope youre phone goes off really loud with one of ur rude ringtones :)
Sophie Fletcher
17-Nov-2009
12:60

Ah, I love that Girl.

The Ultimatum.

I said; Friends or Nothing
You said; Relationship or Nothing.


In the end, The choice was clear.


19/08/09 - 12/11/09 & finally 24/11/09

Whoop Vamp.

Falling.


but I have a feeling you're not.

My love life, in Lyrics.

Ne-Yo. Round & Round.

Baby when we first met
It was kind of fly that I couldn't predict your mood
Said I could never guess (so) and it was the best (so)
Not like any other dude
But I don't know man, I don't know man, I don't know man
I don't really really know
But before my eyes I saw the good you leave
And the bad you start to show

And I just can't take it (can't take it)
No I just can't take it (No)
So we ain't gon make it (ain't gon make it)
This is relationship and gon make it (no)

I'm tired of all this Round and Round we go
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right
So round & round we go
While I decided don't wanna ride anymore
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & Round
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & around and around
Round & Round we go, round and round we go

round and round we go
Don't get excited anymore when you're sweet to me
Because I know one, two, three minutes later
You'll be right back to being mean
It's flowers on a Monday,
Tuesday you're hating me
Wednesday's makeup sex is so amazing
What will you be Thursday, will it be friendly
or will I again be sleeping with the enemy
Thought So

Round and Round we go
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right
So round & round we go
While I decided don't wanna ride anymore
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & Round & Round
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & around and around
Round & Round we go, round and round we go

look at me, look at me, so damn dizzy
Tryina keep, tryina keep, trying to keep up with you
Baby you're Doctor Jeckyll and Mister Hyde
Slowly ruining my life for me
Baby I don't need you
Round and Round we go, Round & Round we go
Round and Round we go
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right
So round & round we go
While I decided don't wanna ride anymore
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & around & around
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round and around and around
Round & Round we go, round and round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round and around and around
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round and around and around
Round & Round we go, round & round we go

The Thrill of the Chase.

Ok. Now is time for the mega guy bitchfest. Starting in 3, 2, sorry i can't wait.

So, he thinks he's Mr Perfect while he's telling me whats 'wrong' with me. Uhmm I don't think so. Telling me to change won't make me want to, infact it will make me want to do the opposite. The part that pisses me off is his selfishness. Sometimes all he did was care about himself and what he wanted. Mr One minute I love you. One minute I hate you.

& he's just an insey winsey bit paranoid. SCRATCH THAT. VERY paranoid. Who's that guy you were talking too? Who are you texting? Stop texting him okay? Ok to be honest i did kinda like that. It showed me he cared but when it comes to the point of telling me NOT to text one of my close friends thats when it because annoying. & what is it with guys trying to make you jealous? Either he truely was doing it to make me jealous like he says or he was being serious in what he was saying. I guess i'll never know. Here are a few cases taken out of the Jealousy File.

Case numero uno. The facebook relationship Status change. xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxx is now in a relationship with xxxxx xxxxxxx. "I dont like her. I did it because u pissed me off & never came to meet me when I wanted you too"

Case numero dos. The I-wanna-fuck-your-friend idea. "Why else do you think I asked her to hook up with me & tell her not to tell you. Of course she is going to tell you. She's your best friend. I just wanted to make you jealous"

Case numero tres. The 'Hey Girls, How you doin' incident. "Ha, you really think i would go for them? You were giving your number to that guy..I had to do something so you would know how it makes me feel seeing like that with guys. I wanted to make you jealous"
Can anybody see my point here?

He's not fully to blame. It takes two to Tango and I added more fuel to the fire.

I'm the kinda girl that likes the thrill of the chase & when i finally get what i want..i dont want it anymore. It's Simple. Whether that'll change about me or not i'll have to see. I dont know how to change that about me. I can't help that about me! Im sorry but it's just like as soon as i get something i want i either realise a) It wasnt as good as it looked b) I get totally bored c) I find something better or d) I just like being the girl whose causes trouble. But talking to a friend of mine has made me think that i'm just not ready for a relationship. I need to grow up, mature. He said he went through the same thing at my age and got out of it when he was 21 & i realised i will get out of this phase. I just dont think it's anything i can control right now.

I'll do what i want, when i want & there is nothing you can do to stop me.

I'm a Drinker; not a Fighter.

WOW. So much to catch up on. Well not really. Just been doing the same boring things with the same un-boring people. But on the otherhand uni has been ow so FABULOUS. Made some new friends who I went clubbing with on wednesday & can i just say for the record Butterfactory is Wa Da Fa awesome & St. James Powerhouse (well, what I can remember of it) is very uuhhm Drop Dead Wew.

Let's start at the begining.
26th October. School. My time table is so slack. I have Thursdays off which i believe is a personal sign from god..(or just the school co-ordinater) that I should you my boobs to their full advantage & go to Ladies night. Hallelujah. Anywho. Got some fitties in my class. pwahhh. Fit as Fuck I swear.

28th October. Moved house. I am now no longer a Kovan/Serangoon girl but a...... HA. As if i'm gonna put online where i stay now. You have got to be kidding me. Room is starting to look like a room & not a wearhouse full of boxs.

4th November. Butterfactory & St. James.
I was a Butterfact & St. J Virgin untill yesterday. I got soo wasted. Like everybody shut up or i'm going to be sick wasted. Had 12 glasses of Alcohol. 4 Vodka Sprites, 3 Orange n Chivas, 2 Whisky n Cokes and 3 glasses of God knows what. Not a pretty sight. All i remember was trying to get the German guys number. Having some guy 'WOW' my boobs. Trying to get into Powerhouse, but failing & talking to Paris guy. I bet i made a great impression on the class mates though. o.O All i have to say is uni is going to be pretty interesting tomorrow.

;]

Alcohol Tollerence.

For the past week i have been out a total number of 4 times & i also know that i said "We're getting Wasted/Drunk/Fucked-up" about 4000 more times. But did we get 'wasted/drunk/fucked up? NO.

How can this be? I dont know...why don't you ask my blood system why it's so hard to take the little alcohol particles or molecules or whatever the fuck you call them and dissolve it or diffuse it into my cells. Thats right bitches im getting scientifically.

I'm not going.

UNIVERSITY ON MONDAY.
- Kate Hannah Marshall will be a University Student.

When did this happen?

Love Vs Weight.

What the fuck is wrong with guys? Why do they want you to be so perfect? They would do anything to change you without even the slightest consideration about how you feel or maybe thats just me and my situations.



"Kate, Straighten your hair"- How about no

"Kate, Go to the gym"- uhhmm na, i think i'll pass

"Kate, Don't wear makeup"- Hell no sound familiar?

The one thing I dont think guys realise is girls want to be loved for who they are & when guys come and try and change them they feel the opposite. Ughhh Why do guys want the perfect girl anyway? To show off to their friends? It shouldn't matter what other people think about the relationship. It all depends on the two people in the relationship. Obviously.

Rant to be continued.

oooooooooh. Your Sex is on Fire.

I know, i'm lame. But i'm in love & have photoshop.

Because 2 can keep a Secret; When one of us is DEAD.

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

Why do you smile
Like you have told a secret
Now you're telling lies
Cause you're the one to keep it
But no one keeps a secret
No one keeps a secret
Why when we do our darkest deeds
Do we tell?
They burn in our brains
Become a living hell
Cause everyone tells
Everyone tells…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

Look into my eyes
Now you're getting sleepy
Are you hypnotized
By secrets that you're keeping?
I know what you're keeping
I know what you're keeping

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

[spoken]
Alison?
Yes, Katherine.
I have something I want to tell you, but
you have to promise to never tell anyone.
I promise
Do you swear on your life?
I swear on my life

[end spoken]

You swore you'd never tell…
You swore you'd never tell…

You swore you'd never tell…
You swore you'd never tell…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…
(chorus x 3)

Yes two can keep a secret
If one of us is…. Dead.

Alcohol, Some of the Best Times, You'll Never Remember.

I haven't gotten drunk in a VERY long time & therefore I only feel that it is necessary to indeed get drunk this weekend. Not only is the lack of drunkenness a reason to drink but this weekend may in fact be my last weekend out. Wanna know why? Cos i- Kate Hannah Marshall will be a university student come the 26th of October. I have orientation next week! Awesomeeee.

& starting a new school means I have to buy a whole new 'school appropriate' wardrobe. No Boobs. =o Shocking I know. Well, we all know what this means...Shopping.

I just wish that one day, someone would take me out & buy me everything I wanted. I mean EVERYTHING.

One Sexy Mofoka.

I think I've got a lesbian obsession with that Fabulous woman above. Angelina Jolie. Those lips, those eyes, that mysterious persona. Epitome of Sex.

Well Guess Life Happened.

Looks like ive totally lost you as a friend. Well guess life happened. Nothing new
- Nikita De Souza

LOVE what she put as her Facebook Status. I am tempted to put it as mine but untill then, on my blog is shall be.

Cold Charisma, Shotgun Wedding.

Baby, baby. When we first met.I never felt something so strong.You were like my lover.And my best friend.All wrapped into one.With a ribbon on it.And all of a sudden.You went, left.I didn't know how to follow.It's like a shot.That spun me around.And now my heart left.I feel so empty and hollow.And I'll never give myself to another.The way I gave it to you.Don't even recognize.The ways you hurt me.Do you?.It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back.And you're the one to blame.And now I feel like, oh.You're the reason.Why I'm thinking.I don't wanna smoke on.These cigarettes no more.I guess that's what I get.For wishful thinking.I should've never let you enter my door.Next time you wanna go on and leave.I should just let you go on and do it.Cause now I'm using like I believe.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.Damn, Ain't it crazy when you're love swept?.You'll do anything for the one you love.'Cause anytime that you needed me.I'd be there.It's like you were my favorite drug.The only problem is.That you was using me.In a different way that I was using you.But now that I know, it's not meant to be.You gotta go, I gotta win myself off of you.And I'll never give myself to another.The way I gave it to you.Don't even recognize.The ways you hurt me.Do you?It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back.And you're the one to blame.And now I feel like, oh.You're the reason.Why I'm thinking.I don't wanna smoke on.These cigarettes no more.I guess that's what I get.For wishful thinking.I should've never let you enter my door.Next time you wanna go on and leave.I should just let you go on and do it.Cause now I'm using like I believe.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.Now ladies, gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.Oh, now gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.Now ladies, gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.Oh, now gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh.OhYou're the reason.Why I'm thinking.I don't wanna smoke on These cigarettes no more.I guess that's what I get.For wishful thinking.I should've never let you enter my door.Next time you wanna go on and leave.I should just let you go on and do it.Cause now I'm using I believe.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease

Gotta check into Rehab, Baby You're my Disease.

I've been thinking for the past 2 days & I've come to the conclusion that I'm feeling like this because-


A- You were the one that said "It's finished, it's over" & not me.


B- I only want you because I can't have you.


or C- I honestly do love you. =/


Ugh. I hate that word, let me just be sick & i'll be right back.

Taboo

Is it really so difficult to tell a good action from a bad one? I think one usually knows right away or a moment afterward, in a horrid flash of regret.
-Mary McCarthy


Regret is an emotion I can't help but feel. People say, "Don't look back at the past. Think towards the future", Is that possible? How can people turn off different parts of their emotions on command? How can you not help but remember the bad things you've done & how can you forget the things you wish never happened?

Ughh. I'm starting to get sick of this scene.
I need a new start to life.

I'm gonna take a break for a while.

похоть & зависти

The Aquarian's chilly rationality upsets the sentimental moonchild, who craves intense emotion. These two signs are so alien to one another their relationship practically develops an allergic rash on contact. Aquarius values reality; Cancer trusts only intuition. Soon misunderstanding has settled in, widening the gap in the couple. In this struggle, the broken heart is always that of the moonchild. Be forewarned and proceed at your own risk: the stars frown on any union of these two signs.

On a lighter Note..

You’ll identify with — and fall in love with — those born between 9 February and 18 February. You’ll have great friendships with these people; their zaniness is attractive, in a weird and wonderful way — they’re just different enough. They are also far more likely than other Aquarians to have relatively settled lifestyles. This gives you the best of both worlds – excitement and a bit of stability.

La cocaina no es buena para su salud

I DON'T FUCKING GET IT.
..Just when I think there is something there
....& that everything, for once in my life, is going perfect
......You change EVERYTHING and push me back to square 1
.........I dont understand you. Never have and I dont think I ever will.

Dass effect to the fullest.
-lets just say I think I have a little too much smoke in my lungs for the time being. I need to let it all out & breath normally again.

He broke into my Heart.

Once in a house on a hill
A boy got angry
He broke into my heart
For a day and a night
I stayed beside him
Until I had no hope
So I came down the hill
Of course I was hurt
But then I started to think

It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

There's a bar by the dock
Where I found myself
Drinking with this man
He offered me a cigarette
And I accepted
'Cause it's been a very long time
As it burned 'till the end
I thought of the boy
No one could ever forget

It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

1 Tequila, 2 Tequila, 3 Tequila, Floor

Went to Social house dressed as school girls with Laura n Elise on Wednesday. LOL. Was fun, except for looking after the drunken. =/ Ahhhh well things got better as the night went on. Ended up getting home just intime to say goodbye to the parentals. They're going away for a while & I'm home all alone x]

Grace & her boy Adam came over today, chilled at the Coffee Shop below me. Locals Loh.

Anywhooooooooooo Amazing Lyrics.

Secret Smile- Semisonic

Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it
Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing
But you can save me from madness

Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So save me I'm waiting
I'm needing, hear me pleading
And soothe me, improve me
I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now, now

When you are flying
around and around the world
And I'm lying alonely
I know there's something
sacred and free reserved
And received by me only

Heartless

I fell for the guy I thought you were =

not who you really are.

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

P.s. -
Finally got the kiss i'd been wanting.

But shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
It's a secret.

Soho-.

Saturday night, started off at Shiraz<3. 2 Redbull, Double Apple & a Gin Bean. Then headed to Soho (Social House for you Noobs out there). There was an Insy Winsy bit of Drama caused but nothing we can't handle... Uhhhhm stayed out till 7ish? Got dropped off at Laura's by Grace's Boyfriend Adam. MOST HILLARIOUS RIDE OF MY LIFE. - Now I'm not a religious girl by I remember praying to live through the journey.

& RANDOM THING-
Met Trish Fox. I swear I use to like stalk her myspace =x She came up to me in the smoking room and was like..."Kate"...n im like "yeahhh you are?

Also ran into Lily =]

Anywhooo, Grace & Sashie got EXTRA drunk.
Evidence- Sasha trying to steal a license plate off of a Van
Grace getting her heel caught in a grid, falling down and laughing herself into oblivion.

Uhmazing night though.

I don't need no love; All i need is the DJ

Lyric of the day.

"I walk with a limp like an old school Pimp"
-Im in Miami Bitch Remix; Pitbul & LMFAO

They call me Superman; I'm here to rescue you.

I want to go to Shiraz.
Now.

roarrrrrrrrrrr

I'm building my City on Rock & Roll

I wanna go back blondeeee but not like dull blonde like "DAYYYYYM, HAVE YOU SEEN HER HAIR BLONDE"? But when when when. Mehhhhhh

Gotta get Uni Sorted. I'm thinking James Cook Uni Singapore but once again still got La Salle in the back of my mind.

HA. Went to Quiz Night at Turnstyles & reliased how much i MISS Vincent =[

Ow and @PATRICK. You dick. Call Me, Laura & Maggie Bad Influences. You can go to HELL.




Quote of the day:

Sasha Harbottle - "YOU HAVE A DICK?! WHY HAVE U BEEN KEEPIN THAT FROM ME ALL THESE WHILE?!!!"

Kate Hannah Marshall - "EXCUSE ME. I showed you it on our wedding night & i'm sure of this because i distinctly remember you facial reaction. It kinda went =o then =) then ;) then =p then back to =0."


Sorry for writing in like short sentences. I just Can't be arsed talking about my life at the moment because it is just simple repetition of every Wednesday/Friday/Saturday that i've had from the past 3 months.

Seduce Me, Reduce Me; Restrain Me, Contain Me

I feel free.

I spent all this time focusing on something that wasn't there that it drove me crazy into thinking something was there. Whoa. It took me TOO goddamn long to realise this but now that it has I feel happy & alive in some ways. Now I don't have to worry about that part of my life. Don't have to think about it, cry about it, be paranoid about it. I could never be myself because I was always trying to be what I thought he wanted. I've learnt a lot of lessons over the past 4 years but the first and utter most inportant one being-

I know now not to be naive.

09/09/09 was a wild one.

Can you say....

Shiraz---> Azzucar---> Arena---> Rebel---> Zirca---> Attica---> McDonalds

ALL IN ONE NIGHT.
Maggie's Last Ladies Night.
She will be missed.

What I Want.

• Quavers
• Vimto
• Minstrels
• Strawberry Poptarts
• Chocolate Digestives
• Ribena
• Yakult

It's a lust thing?

I don't love you I just want you.
DUH


What is love anyway?

Long Island Ice Tea.

People are leaving everywhere. It sucks and I want to be 12 again.

Aebert
Angus
Didi
Janine
Jason
Laura
Morgan
Ruth
Sophie
Yasushi

Had a goodbye dinner for Angus tonight. It was a genuinly good British night, Darts & Shandy.
Gonna miss you Angus.
See you in the Summer <3

9th July.

Courtney Love (Kurt Cobains wife) was born on my Birthday. How awesome is that?

Like way awesome.

Blogspot is being a bitch again.

It's fate

You're working again baby.

Blogspot, I take back all I said. I know I was harsh but I just wanted to make you see how stubborn you were being.
But now your back.. with all your buttons. Add a picture, Add a widget, Text Size changer and even spell check, just like the old times.

I'm sorry about mentioning Live Journal. I would never leave you for that slut.

I love you.
& don't you pull this shit on me again.

Blogspot. You Bitch

Why don't you work anymore.

Remember the old days? All of the fun we use to have together? Changing font colours, adding pictures and i even remember the time when you let me bold words.

Now you've turned into a real bitch who only works when she wants too & i dont like it one bit.

Whore. I want a Divorce.

P.s. I know about Live Journal

Oi Wanker.

Wanker. That was the most used word last night, well by me and laura anyway.

On the spur of the moment we decided to go to Ladies night. I was on strict orders to be at Laura's by 10.30- I got there about 11.15ish. Then it was off to Clark. Once again in Killer Heels, and when I say killer...thats what I mean. Think 6 1/2 inch stilletos.

So to Arena we went..had a few drinks then went off to Shiraz to see sexy Mr K (Yep, laura im stealing your style) & to have some shisha. Met this fab couple here on holiday & talked with them for a while and then it was back to Arena. Ran into my Mr S & laura's Mr S. Joy-not. Anywho after awkward meetings with the previously mentioned S brothers we got more drinks, sat down & had a few laughs. All of a sudden this charming guy- Mr D casually walks by but down two tequila shots on our table says "enjoy" then walks away. Awwwww bless. So there nothing else to do but CHEAAAAS. (Cheers for you non kaura-linguals)

Anywho, this guy on the table behind us fell in love with Lauras tits and decided he would have a chat with her. Whilst Mr D came back to the table for a little chat aswell- I thanked him for the shots and we continued to talk for a while. =]

OW & Laura and i went to the bathroom had a bitch fight with these 3 whores. Long story short I gave the 'wanker gesture' and we never saw each other again. It was the perfect ending.

Finally we got McDs & instead of paying $6.90 I decided to just give him $2- by total accident i must add. It didnt work. In histerics i gave him the right money stood to one side and laughing till i cried. I swear people must have thought we were retards- even though we kinda are. Then it was Taxi, Pj's, Food, Bed, Sleep.

This is the life ay? Booze. Bitch Fights. Boys & Sausage McMuffins

I'm Sorry

I understand now.




Ns you Bitch.

"Time doesn't erase things, people erase things" - Fern, Jawbreaker

It's weird how one year you can all be friends and the next just strangers. Not even strangers, just people you'de rather not remember from a time long forgotten.

I was on myspace just now, YES myspace, you know...the means of communication between people before Facebook came along and changed the face of the world blah blah blah. Well anyway, myspace. I was reading comments from people who once i would have done anything for but now, to be frank, i just couldnt give a flying fuck about. -Dont take it personal, i know you probably feel the same about the Kate Marshall you once knew and loved.

Take for instance- (ow & btw, i am showing the most heartfelt comments to show it wasnt a one sided friendship LOL)


Kutip-
hehehe...
i'll sure wiLL have fun at MUSE!!!!
and guess wat......
!!!~I DID..~!!!=)
wooHOo!!!LOL
it was fuckin awesome..!!
=]=]=]!!
too bad ur not there...=[..
it's okie...there will more upcomin gigs..hopefully...hahaks..:P
i see me at ur top fwends..=)
u'll be seeing u ..at mine...
hehehe..=]
love ya..~

Azmeer-
Dec 17, 2006 6:56 PM
Hey2..thanks 4 accepting too
Hope to know ya better
cheers xD

Wanie-
Dec 18, 2006 11:45 AM
nice space uve gt there sweetie.
i woke up at 8!! erghh cause of my fucken bro.
hw about you hun ?
hey baby, you'll appear in my top 4's alright
heh(:

everymeeveryyou-
Apr 22, 2007 3:43 PM
kate!!
aku cinta padamu..

haha..
tc sweets.

Kiki-
Oct 11, 2006 6:24 PM
gee, me cute?! nahh ur CUTER....hey thanks fer accepting the add yar...im good how r u doin?? hope it fine down there.....................




Believe me, THE list goes on...& if i met you at Gas Haus you're probably on it.

Thank You; <3 Poem from Shyam

If you ever want to fly
But your afraid to fall
I will be your wings

If you ever lose your voice
And it hurts to call
I will help you sing

If your ever in pain
And you want to cry
I will take away the sting

Cos i'll be the for you
Through anything

If your ever feeling lonely
And your shouting out for help
I will hear your call

If you ever lose your balance
And are about to tumble
I will break your fall

If your soul gets weak
And your feeling worthless
I will help you stand tall

Cos i'll be there for you
Through anything

Bulletproof

Been there, done that, messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
I won't let you in again
The messages I've tried to send
My information's just not goin in
Burning bridges, shore to shore
I break away from something more
I'm not to, not to love until it's cheap
Been there, done that, messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

Chorus
This time baby
I'll be Bulletproof
(repeat)

I won't let you turn around,
I'll tell you now, I'm much too proud
To walk away from something when it's dead
Do do do your dirty worst
Come out to play when you are hurt
There's certain things that should be
Left unsaid
Tick tick tick tick on the watch
Life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out
I won't let you turn around
And tell me now, I'm much too proud
All you do is fill be up with doubt

Chorus
This time baby
I'll be Bulletproof
(repeat)

This time, I'll be Bulletproof
(repeat)

Chorus
This time baby
I'll be Bulletproof
(repeat)
This time baby, this time baby
This time baby, this time
This time baby, this time baby
Bulletproof

To Whom it may Concern.

WHAT THE FUCK.
Call me paranoid, no actually just call me.

Fine then just Text me. Texting too hard? just a little email. A simple msn message? facebook me if you have too. You can even go as low as to Myspace me. ANYTHING.

I wont wait forever, but i'll wait as long as i can.
I'm losing my patience.

Kate Marshall.

Random Guys.

I believe it was at the point where she was kissing that guy when i realised i don't want that anymore. I don't want to meet guys at clubs, or kiss guys i've just meet. I want 'The One'. Ok I won't call him 'The One', but i want something pretty close. I want the guy thats all mine. The one who i can't wait to meet when i go out. The one i can be my true self with. The one who will travel all the way across Singapore (even though its not that big) to see me even if it's only for half an hour and finally the one who i can say "sorry guys, im taken" about.
Ok, now i know why they call them "The One". I guess it's because i've spent so much time with random guys that I understand now why they are called random.

Random: Having no specific pattern, purpose, or objective: random movements.

These guys have no specific pattern, PURPOSE or objective. HENCE WTF am i doing caring what they think, bothering with who they hookup with or giving a fuck about if they ask for my number or not.

& Girls remember.
If he's out on a Ladies Night, then you know he's out only to pull. Why else would he be there?

btw, If you think you are 'The One' please leave your name and number at the bottom of the page & Btw that was a joke. Please don't bother. I know who i want.

So, Ladies Night again?

Once again people it is a Wednesday Night - Otherwise known as Ladies Night. Yup, ever since this year began my wednesdays have been consumed or should i say i have consumed Free Cosmopolitans, Lychi Martinis and other unknown substances & i believe that tonight will not be any different.

Le Plan es- 8.30pm Meet Lauren, people & her hot SEXAY brother followed by Shisha & a clubbing sesion with Laura Ellen Tait. Whooooop. Then probably 3am breakfast at McDonalds.

Well basically you will all know where i will be on a Wednesday Night. Arena bby.
I'll see you there.

Party like a Rock Star. Look like a Movie Star. Play like an All Star. Fuck like a Porn Star.

Graduation, Over.
Results, Recieved.
Schools, Applying.
Jobs, Applying.
Life, Living.

18, Finally.

So, It's been a long eight Months since I have posted anything so I thought I might aswell. Remember my list of 'Things to forget about and stop doing'? [Below] Well lets see if i have actually forgot or have stopped doing the things i said i would.

1) Falling for lies,
So far, So good.

2) Going out with no plans,
Big Tick. I am now happy to report that this has been achieved. [On most occasions]

3) Wasting money,
Uhhhm, =/ Well, Alcohol & Partying isnt a waste of $$ is it?

4) Dass,
Worked for about 2 months, until facebook chat messed things up, but now its all back on track.

5) Being afraid of what people think,
Kinda.

6) Having random flings,
Hi5

7) Feeling guilty about smallest things,
Working on it.

8) Starbucks-
HATE starbucks so Check.

9) Tim
No comment. x]

10) Being unorganised
I guess so

11) Being Jealous.
I have cut down on it I think.

12) Being Self Concious
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

13) Wearing horrible Makeup
I have no idea if my makeup is good or bad atm, but i like it soo?

14) Trying to please other people.
Check.

Soooo, 5 out of 14 things isnt sooo bad is it? CRAP. This is gay.

New Year; New Life

2008 has said its goodbyes, and i couldnt be happier.

Did a countdown at Sentosa with some of my best friends and some of my old friends. =]

But its time i write down the things i need to forget about and stop doing so that i can get the best out of the year ahead;

1) Falling for lies,
2) Going out with no plans,
3) Wasting money,
4) Dass,
5) Being afraid of what people think,
6) Having random flings,
7) Feeling guilty about smallest things,
8) Starbucks-
9) Tim
10) Being unorganised
11) Being Jealous.
12) Being Self Concious
13) Wearing horrible Makeup
14) Trying to please other people.


THE END.