UnKrypted

Pulau Perhentian

2010-06-22T03:05:00.000-07:00

Just realized how emo my posts were LOL
Lots of things have happened since then =]

the end

RIR

2010-03-20T03:28:00.000-07:00

I said: I don't wanna fall anymore
You said: Just fall, it's fine

So I did.
& You fucked me over.

Never say Never

2010-03-17T22:04:00.001-07:00

I will never say I love you for I simply don't know what love is. I will always be holding those words for an impossible guy who media has told me will come but never will. Movies, Books, Television shows, poems even fairy tales have made me believe that one day someone will knock me off my feet and will give me a romance which cannot compare to the little flings I've had. It will be great love, amazing love, beautiful love. I was sure of it. But when it comes down to it, love cannot be compared. Like a fingerprint it differs for everyone. There are never two loves alike therefore what i expect will never be.

Fcuk My Life

2010-03-17T21:06:00.001-07:00

As if im not in a fucked up, messed up and fed up kinda mood already I get this message off Ruth on Fb.

Ruth Phiri March 17 at 6:19pm
oh dude i have to tell you as well, Portugal is going to be training at my univeristy in the summer, that means cristiano ronaldo for a whole month Jeolous.

The lucky bitch.
I miss her. =[

Keith Hamson Marsell

2010-03-14T08:06:00.001-07:00

Could it be? I've found Keith Hamson Marsell. The guy who is afraid of commitment. Leads girls on until he moves on and does the same to the next? I think i have. WOWZA

Logically a mess.

2010-03-13T23:07:00.000-08:00

What i dont get is how i'm willing to do anything for someone that doesn't care for me but do nothing for the ones that do care? Where is the sense in that.

Urgablahbeh

2010-03-13T23:03:00.001-08:00

Love is like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day, you want more. You’re not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. You think about the person you love for two minutes, and forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he’s not there, you feel like an addict who can’t get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you’re willing to do anything for love.

— Paulo Coelho (By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept)

s-l-u-t

2010-03-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

BAHAHAHAAHHAA

Joshy Yep THats mE! BIg, BrowN, HuNky, ChuNky and SpUnkY! XD says:
Are you a slut?

'xx. Kate ;; Lux Aeterna says:
Huh wtf?

Joshy Yep THats mE! BIg, BrowN, HuNky, ChuNky and SpUnkY! XD says:
jsut asking are u or not

' xx. Kate ;; Lux Aeterna says:
no?

Joshy Yep THats mE! BIg, BrowN, HuNky, ChuNky and SpUnkY! XD says:
u sure?
i think u are..

' xx. Kaye ;; Lux Aeterna says:
o.0

Joshy Yep THats mE! BIg, BrowN, HuNky, ChuNky and spUnkY! XD says:
sexy, lean & un-tameable
lol

' xx. Kate ;; Lux Aeterna says:
LOL

Danger Danger Mrs Robinson

2010-03-11T02:45:00.001-08:00

I hate it when you talk to someone online, then you stop talking for a while, then when you go back to talk they're offline. -.-

I met your boy, I texted your boy, I sexed your boy & he loved it.

2010-03-07T09:45:00.000-08:00

NS.
STOP STEALING MY BOYS.
BITCH.

The Who Whos.

2010-03-06T18:55:00.000-08:00

Nearly Died on the bus- Now I have a bruised & battered back. A swollen finger & a pulled musle in my right arm.
Went to City Hall
Went Jamming at Bugis
Went to Cathay
Went home
Simple, Not so easy.

ARGUBLAHBLEHUHHHHHGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I can die happy.

2010-03-06T18:39:00.000-08:00

DIE HAPPY I TELL YOU. =]

Malice in Wonderland.

2010-03-05T18:36:00.000-08:00

LOL @ the walk back to kert after the movie. I went down from Cathay to Cinileasure.
So, I was minding my own business listening to music then all of a sudden this guy starts walking down n talking with me. & you know me, I'm the friendliest girl in Singapore ffs. So i talk back. Below goes the convo.

Stranger: Where from
Me: England
Stranger: Ow Beautiful country, Rich country. (because he's not after money AT ALL)
Me: mmmm (fake a smile)

he walks on, then stops then slows down to talk more.

Stranger: Where do you live?
Me: Oooorchard?
Stranger: Oh, where are you going?
Me: Cathayy?

he walks on, then stops then slows down to talk to me again

Stranger: Married?
Me: o.0 no.
Stranger: Ok, How old?
Me: 18
Stranger: wow, so young and fresh (fresh? FRESH?)

so once again he walks off then comes back & at this point he has made me take my earphone out 4 times and i was listening to Lil' Wayne. NO ONE INTERRUPTS ME WHEN I LISTEN TO LIL' WAYNE.

Stranger: You are so beautiful
Me: Thanks.
Stranger: Boyfriend
Me: Yes
Stranger: Singapore boyfriend?
Me: Yes
Stranger: England boyfriend?
Me: No.
Stranger: ok that's all i need to know.

So then he shakes my hand then like speed walk off. I breath a sigh of relief then realise i'm back to having private time with my little wayne baby.

She'll be saying use me, Show me the Jacuzzi.

2010-03-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

I'm usually caught being in lust rather than in love. I don't know why.
I don't push romance away I just dwell in the idea of sin.
I never know what I want but I tend to want what I can't have.
& once i get it, i just simply don't want it anymore. Call me spoilt.
But maybe living this way has it's benefits.
Because it means I'll just have my heart broken and never shattered.

Harsh

2010-03-02T05:51:00.000-08:00

"Wats new..-_-" see la...u kept gg out with the people who knows the guy thats obviously not into u. u're just wasting ur time..bt yea, im nt in the position to nag at u..u knw wat u want n wat to do.."

&

"Well, im sry but as a close fren, i just dont want to see u keep getting hurt and feel like shit at the end of each hang out of urs..u obviously know that he's nt that into u..yet, u kept coming back and get urself ito a bigger mess..i may nt show that i cared bout u.bt for how long do u wanna be treated like this?"

He could never hurt me as much as what you said hurt me.

Queen

2010-03-01T09:26:00.000-08:00

I've changed my mind, I take it back.
Don' t touch me please, I cannot stand the way you tease.
You've got me wrapped around your finger, do you have to let it linger.

3 songs STUCK on replay.
Cardigans, Soft cell, Cranberries.

IGUL

Pointless

2010-02-21T08:34:00.000-08:00

That's what you are. UTTERLY POINTLESS.
You send me random stupid messages at 12.30am +++

You've caused me so much 'arghness'- if that's even a word- in the past. The last thing i want off you is an annoying message which makes me a) think of you b) remind myself of the regret i feel just knowing I had anything to do with you.

This has not been my week at all.

I give up lah.

2010-02-20T21:35:00.001-08:00

I go away tomorrow & I couldn't be more happier to take a break from this place. The past month has been so draining mentally. I mean my emotions have been running overtime. My 'I don't care' attitude has morphed into this 'I do care but I give up attitude'. I need the old me back.

I'll leaving Singapore hurt and hopefully come back with a tan.

Twisted

2010-02-19T21:18:00.000-08:00

I'm getting a taste of my own medicine & i don't like it one bit.

First attempt of writing?

2010-02-18T10:41:00.001-08:00

I swore i’d stop. I’d sit and share the last cigarette with him and convince myself that there wouldn’t be a fresh pack tomorrow. I’m not addicted to them i’d say, they just give me something to do in awkward times. What an excuse. “Just something to do in awkward times? So what you’re saying is that it’s awkward to be with me?” he’d reply jokingly. As if he was only speaking to prolong the conversation which we both knew had no point from the very beginning. I tried to giggle and give a reply but ended up chocking on the smoke which had been half inhaled, half swallowed.

He looked away, proving he didn’t care what my reply was. Blowing the remainder of the smoke into the air and flicking the ashy tip of the ciggarette into the can turned ashtray I said “No, it’s not awkward being with you at all”. But it actually was. Awkward in the sense that I like you and you don’t like me. The awkwardness where you’re not yourself when you’re with him but instead someone you think he wants you to be. He gave a half hearted smile and continued to stare at the passing world which had caught his attention a few moments after realising the conversation was heading nowhere.

Then it hit. The silence we were trying to avoid. It hit hard and what’s worse, the cigarette had about two puffs left to save me from actually having to have a real conversation

Truth 102

2010-02-18T08:32:00.000-08:00

Sashie - You know you're my saving grace says:
nah not worth it
if we were truly meant to be i wouldnt have to chase him
we'll just fall for each other
at the same moment
no expectations

Sasha. You are brilliant.

Dilemma

2010-02-17T00:49:00.001-08:00

Should i just give on blog spot & move to tumblr? I mean it is AWESOME. haishhh maybe keep both?

Anywhoo,
Mother and I are facing a dilemma. Where to go for a weeks break from life?

Bali
Bangkok
Bintan
Batam

I suggested Spain but she was quick to shut that idea down.

Truth 101

2010-02-16T08:29:00.000-08:00

Just remember everyone grows old and ugly, get the cute assholes now and your gonna have to put up with a asshole the rest of your life-

Amen.
Thank you Matty.

Make like the breeze; Get on your knees, Begin to blow

2010-02-16T07:47:00.001-08:00

Ok, i'm going to start to back away now before i get in way too deep. I'll give it a week & see what happens.

Jimmy Angel-Love.

2010-02-14T23:46:00.001-08:00

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Pissed off.

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ok, now i feel a bit better, ow wait...no i don't.

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meh, it'll do. No use ruining my keyboard over you.

Shwayze

2010-02-14T08:53:00.000-08:00

Badass in Army boots.

2010-02-14T06:26:00.002-08:00

For Valentines day the Family went down to Joe's place for a CNY BBQ. Chris's family was there and Joe's new neighbours.

Becuase Joes house is AMAZING, has a pool table, a wee, a playstation, a fuseball table, 4 cats & basically everything any kid would EVER want we had fun revisting our childhood.

James is beautiful.

Anyway, Remember how I wrote about the little unexpected con incidences in life which i ADORE and live for? Well later in the night another family came to join the party.

So first the mother walks in, i smile-cos im nice. Then a girl and her brother come up so i smile-cos im nice. Then their older brother comes up texting on his phone- so i think to myself. HOLY SHIT. WHO IS THAT? HE IS FYYNE. Act cool Kate. ACT COOL. SO I strike a pose. Then he looks up...& its Maurice. An Ex. My jaw FELL to the floor. - and my pose was ruined.

Later on Joe brought out these army boots which just happened to be my size. Either I have man sized feet or the guy has extremely girly feet i dont know but thats not the point. I put the boots on & felt so bad ass. Just image-

Me in a long pink floaty dress, full head of makeup...with a pair of big army boots on. OW yeah.
I swear..I'd join NS just for the outfit. It's kinda sexy.

abuse sir, abuse

2010-02-14T06:26:00.001-08:00

Ow yes I get abused on a daily basis by Mr S. Above is proof. Exhibit A, B & C.

Serena VanderHOEsen

2010-02-13T11:10:00.000-08:00

Ugggh so apparently during the summer like Serena like went off to like travel and shit & like apparently her and Ronaldo got like together? And I totally have like proof. I mean just look at the video. Ugh but then again i like totally don't think he would do something like that. Shes so ew and hes so wow. No way in hell would he ever like go for her. He only has eyes for like me, Duh.

Ok, maybe I may have over reacted a little bit. I just have to keep telling myself...

Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real. Gossip Girl ISN'T real.

We think you're a joke, Shove your hope where it don't shine.

2010-02-13T09:07:00.000-08:00

Im a simple girl who enjoys but the simplest pleasures in life. The coincidental moments and the unexpected events which you thought would never happen in a million years. Even the happenings which make you cringe in embarrassment. It's like when you're drunk and you forget everything that happened but the next day..you wake up sober and as the day goes on you start to remember the little things that you did and you just can't help but think to yourself- OMG I DID NOT DO THAT. Please tell me i did not do that.

Well that's what I had the other week after a magnificent ladies night.

Went out with Jo & Joan to Butters. Bumped into Abang =]. Drank way too much, danced way too little & left way to early-due to the state I was in.

I don't understand it. Whenever i go to butters i always end up mortally drunk. Not even mortally drunk but mortally WASTED. Ugh. But the drinks there are amazing and the staff ain't that bad either. Take for example. Mr R-The Bar tender. Yum would be an understatement. An utter understatement. I was in the line for drinks by myself-looking sad and pathetic when Mr R blows me a kiss. So out of politeness I blow one back, Mr R does a like gymnastically jump back catch and puts it in his pocket. People began to look at me like i was mental but i'm sure they were just jealous of Mr R and my mini affair. :)

I've only been to butters 3 times but the first time i went i was EXTREMELY drunk and overly friendly with the bouncer. I also did this weird toned hello. Which starts off really high then goes into a deep low. Anyway, so im going into butters and all of a sudden i hear my "Hel-Lowwwww", the bouncer actually remembered me, which either means i made a great first impression with my hello or i was that weirdly drunk i was unforgetable. Either way Im making friends LOL.

Cutie in the smoking room asked me for a lighter, so i lent him one. We did that whole smile back at each other thing until i went back in to drink more. 7 drinks later i see him again, tap him on the shoulder, do the weirdest smile followed by two thumbs up. How old am i 12? I'll be asking him for a hi5 next time. Lets hope there isnt a next time. 0.o

All in all. Fun night. Fun people.

With friends like these who needs friends?

2010-02-13T06:28:00.000-08:00

Is it me or is Singapore getting HOTTER? & by hotter I mean becoming an actual furnace? Anyway, on a hot day what is better than going on a long walk & heading to the lovely reservoir? Well there are many things better than that..but do keep in mind I do live on that tiny dot below malaysia some people call Singapore. And there isn't really much to do here on a budget of less that a tenner but we make do.

Izad is a perv. Proof? Izad is a pornstar. Proof?

Buzzin'

2010-02-12T08:34:00.000-08:00

From now on you shall refer to Adli & I as....The perv catches. Why? Because that's what we do. Catch the pervs that perv into cars hoping to find people having sex. & how did this amazing new job prospect arise?

Well chilling in the res car park (as we all do) Adli looks and goes "look at the perv", so feeling like a ninja I look to my left and see a guy crouched down peering into the window of this car. So Adli honks the horn, the perv looks and creeps back into the bushes.

Ok, so I admit Adli did most of the work, he spotted the perv and confronted the perv but as Juno & Bleeker once said.....

JUNO Oh yeah. I'm kind of a deadbeat lab partner, huh?
BLEEKER I don't mind. You definitely bring something to the table.
JUNO Charisma?
BLEEKER Or something.

ow yes, I bring the charisma.

Moon-tanning

2010-02-10T04:07:00.000-08:00

I officially took 2 busses & 2 trains yesterday just to see him, all together costing me a grand total of $3.80. Beats spending $20 on a cab, thats fer sure. We went moon-tanning, and i didn't know that existed either so dont worry.

90210

I've come to realise that when you spend everyday with a person, going two or even one day without them is kinda hard. I guess i'll find someway to deal.

Off to Butterfactory tonight for a celebratory 'Out of Exams' get together with el class. Taking a bus there-Yes Izad has trained me well. Anyway, I better get ready. It's not easy looking like a Hoe but i always manage to pull it off. =/

Aku lagi manis dari sampoerna.

2010-02-10T03:55:00.000-08:00

Yes, I am sweeter than sampoerna but do you wanna know what's even sweeter? The fact that the first semester is over. Exams have been completed and I have 18 full day of holiday left. & how have I decided to reward myself for attenting every class & not skipping even a single lecture? Well by catching up on the TV programs which make my like look dull in comparison. Just finished the first season of gossip girl and have another two to go.

So until then who am i? That's one secret I'll never tell.

XOXO.
KM

Mother

2010-02-08T00:51:00.001-08:00

You are a drunken disgrace.

Tattooligans.

2010-02-07T03:51:00.000-08:00

Amazing.

Happy Birthday Cristiano.

2010-02-04T22:05:00.001-08:00

Happy Birthday Cristiano Ronaldo dos Santos Aveiro. My lover.

My Likkle Shunbeam

2010-02-04T21:56:00.001-08:00

My Little Sunbeam is back & I guess he missed me a little more than I missed him hehe. He woke me up by jumping on my bed and frantically humping my leg. He's a horny bugger but I love him non-the less

Owch-y

2010-02-04T21:54:00.000-08:00

S <3. Casuarina w/ Izad.

Stop. I'm serious.

2010-02-02T08:23:00.001-08:00

Just STOP telling me your problems. I don't care. Stop complaining about things that have happened in the past and about things that are easily fixed. Trust me. They may seem like a big deal, but they are not.

I will no longer show you sympathy, empathy or try even in the slightest of ways to cheer you up. It's a WASTE of my time.

Tiger.

2010-02-02T02:31:00.000-08:00

Got a Valentines day ask out.
I smiled.

Carnival

2010-02-02T02:19:00.001-08:00

I made Izad come over.
Cas then Res.

The sky was absofuckinglutly beautiful.

Pla-Cebo

2010-02-02T01:49:00.000-08:00

Guess whose going?
Me

& they say that a hero can save us.

2010-02-01T01:41:00.000-08:00

Went to Sengkang to watch Foootball with devote Arsenal supporter Izaddddd. I actually got a bus there, actually looked a mess & actually learned in future that maybe a taxi is more better suited.

& all i have to say is Man U kicked arse-nal. LOL Get it? arse...kicked arse...kicked arsenal? Ok nevermind.

Wes baby. Call me.

Panas Sia.

2010-01-30T09:02:00.000-08:00

Bunny Boiler met the parents tonight. It was random-NOT planned.

Went for a family dinner and just happened to be in the same neighbourhood as BB himself. So i thought ahh wth. Meet up, say hi, do that whole i once liked you so this is kinda awkward but it shouldnt be awkward even though it is kinda awkward thing. This meetup is about 1 month over due anyway. ughhhh.

4 Days in a Row.

2010-01-29T04:17:00.000-08:00

You like my eyes. I like your lips.

Injeculator

2010-01-28T21:55:00.000-08:00

Izad came over again.
Full stoppppp

SAKIT SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Whoa, Tastes like Banana

2010-01-27T08:04:00.000-08:00

Hung with Izadddd & my dearest Sashie poo @ Starbucks this evening.
Lemme get to the point

Sasha-Not ticklish
Kate-Semi ticklish
Izad-HOLY FUCK, Touch him & he will die ticklish

Damnnnn Cuteeeee Siaaaaa

=]

2010-01-27T07:59:00.001-08:00

You make me smile.

Life

2010-01-26T08:46:00.000-08:00

Skreamix

2010-01-26T07:59:00.000-08:00

Daniel & Izadddd came to hang today.
we: Guitar Heroed it up
Kevin & Perryed it up
Porned it up
then smoked it up.

Most of this happened whilst Izad was asleep on my couch. x]

Youth in Revolt

2010-01-24T01:49:00.001-08:00

Been a busy busy girl.

Bunny Boiler.

2010-01-17T07:29:00.000-08:00

11:04pm Bunny Boiler**
sexyyyyyyyy
u lookin hot...lolol

11:06pmKate
:)
lol. allo Bunny Boiler

11:06pm Bunny Boiler
brb........

11:08pm Bunny Boiler
yehhh....sexyyyyyyyyy
yehhhh........
um baq asexy

11:10pmKate
ahhk

11:10pm Bunny Boiler
wat u up to?

11:10pmKate
msn u?

11:10pm Bunny Boiler
on fb....nd watching porn:)
lolol

11:11pmKate
owwkay

11:11pm Bunny Boiler
um watching porn...lololol

11:11pmKate
oooooooowkayyyyy

11:12pm Bunny Boiler
hahahaha jus kidding...............?

11:12pmKate
lolll

11:12pm Bunny Boiler
hows life goimg on..............?

11:14pmKate
not badddddddd

11:15pm Bunny Boiler
ohhh...hows u nd ----.......?

11:15pmKate
me and ----?

11:16pm Bunny Boiler
u guys nt togather......?

11:16pmKate
no? when were we?
ah facebook chat is fucked up!

11:17pm Bunny Boiler
omg i thot u nd ---- is togather

11:17pmKate
haha
nooo

11:17pm Bunny Boiler
but u told me last time remember............?

11:17pmKate
whenn>?

11:19pm Bunny Boiler
whn i askd u...if we cn't be togather do u go for ----...nd u said yes......remember?

11:19pmKate
nope

11:20pm Bunny Boiler
u said.....but u cn't remember.....neways...

11:20pmKate
=/

11:20pm Bunny Boiler
wats dat mean?

11:21pmKate
its just a smiley face

11:22pm Bunny Boiler
ohhhh.........then u wid whom nw................?

11:25pmKate
noone atm

11:26pm Bunny Boiler
gonna soon.......?

11:26pmKate
I dont think so.

11:27pm Bunny Boiler
hmmm...actually u r nt ready for any kind of relatuionship....

11:27pmKate
Bunny Boiler. would u STOP telling me what i am and what im not ready for.

11:28pm Bunny Boiler
akay....sorry if i tell da truth.......

11:28pmKate
its not the truth. just because i wasnt good in a relationship with you DOESNT mean i wont be good in a relationship with someone else.

11:29pmt Bunny Boiler
u cn't be....nd u nd me wasn't in relationship...it was full of error....
show me u r in relation kate...
yes u can be for da time but cn't for eva...until u change urslf...

11:31pmKate
I dont have to change myself, why can't you understand that?

11:32pm Bunny Boiler
u have to....wat eva we are...nd u wasn't evn drunk nd had sex wid ---- ....hahahaha
yeh u no need to change urslf
jus do dat same thing wid others...

11:33pmKate
If i did that to you it must have meant that i didnt have enough feelings for you to stop myself. Simple.
If i really love a guy trust me i wont do that.

11:34pm Bunny Boiler
yeh....i hope...u'll love some guys....

11:35pmKate
awesome

**For the other member of this convo's privacy I have renamed him Bunny Boiler- urban dictionary it bitch.

Not just a crush.

2010-01-14T04:54:00.000-08:00

"i had millions of crushes - in fact, every attractive boy i gravitated towards, i wasted my mind on for a minute or two. but you, you were the only one i wasted hours, days, years on.”

Cristiano Ronaldo. My one and only.

My Weakness?

2010-01-12T06:56:00.001-08:00

When you tell me you need to find a girlfriend.

Once again, the girl you hate has won you over

2010-01-12T05:26:00.002-08:00

Never will you guess who I saw today. Kimmy & her beautiful baby boy Cooper. Honestly, i left school saying "Find me a man, I'm having me a baby" LOL. As long as Ronaldo's the father, i mean who would kick him out of their life or even out of their bed? and if you're thinking to yourself 'ew I would!' well you can go suck a donkey.

Met up with my wife, Miss Sasha Marshall-Rouse. OW how i love her. She picked me up and we went for Prattta and Noodles down near my place. It was about time we had a long ass-well over due catch up.

So all filled up we sat in my wondrous garden and talked for hours, quite literally till i couldn't keep my eyes open. Then 12 struck the clock and my carriage turned into a pumping and wait what? ooo No, i mean it was getting late, we both had school and I didn't think i could make it up to bed but I walked her to get a Taxi, then collapsed as soon as I reached my bedroom door.

Midnight Beast

2010-01-12T05:26:00.001-08:00

I'm starting to get good at this, you know..the whole not caring anymore & I'm being serious!

At the beginning of the year there was an incident that really upset me and usually I would let it really affect me. You know, think about it all the time, dwell on what to do about it, get paranoid etc but this year i told myself i would somehow change. Kate actually try and change pfffft. I know i had my doubts too.

I don't know how i did it but its getting easier. When something seems like it can get to me i just don't think about it and avoid it totally. I know it seems like 'DUH, obviosly' but the thing is that's insanely hard for me to do. No matter what, i will always find a way to think about it and let it hurt me but now i just brush it off.

I'm just waiting for more think to affect me. BRING IT ON. Push me

Kat-woman

2010-01-10T04:29:00.000-08:00

Went for a movie night with Adleyyyyyy. So he picked me up and off we went to Bedok Res. It's beautifulllll & absolutely totally effingly haunted in my opinion. Actually, come to think of it, everywhere we go is kinda haunted. 0.o

Movies watched - Half of Drag me to Hell followed by half of Charlie & the chocolate factory. Now if only we used those two halves a tad bit more productively we could have actually watched one whole movie. See my math ain't THAT bad. Math Studies PSSSSH I'm frikkin Einstein, with better hair- sometimes.

By the way, you know how there is one specially talent someone has but they never know what it is until they unlock it? Well i found mine. I'm a Cat Whisperer, which is why i am forcing people to call me Kat-Woman. Get it? my name is Kate take off the e.....ok nvm. & how did I unlock this talent I head you asking? Well i saw this little kitty and i must say it was the most beautiful cat i'd ever seen! So i start meowing at it, -as you do and along it came, jumped up and just sat on my knee. I felt like God. Even though i kinda am one.

Ow and since WHEN did ants hurt do much? & I am being bloody serious. I must have got bitten 80+ times and im not joking. If you could see my face you'd realise im not joking...but then I'd probably start laughing, out of awkwardness of course.

Reminds me of you.

2010-01-10T04:01:00.000-08:00

Lights- Quiet

I'm not yours, and you're not mine
But we can sit and pass the time
No fighting wars, no ringing chimes
We're just feeling fine
This is where we're supposed to be
Sitting by a broken tree
No tragedy, no poetry
Just staring at the sky

I could wait a thousand hours
Stay the same in sun and showers
Pick apart a hundred flowers
Just to be quiet
Tell me when you feel ready
I'm the one, there's not too many
Hold my hand to keep me steady
Just to be quiet
With you

I like it here beside you dear
you're even more than you appear
And in the clouds my head is clear
Every time you say hello
So here's my heart, and here's my mouth
And I can't help if things come out
'Cause there are words I want to shout
But maybe I'll stay low

I could wait a thousand hours
Stay the same in sun and showers
Pick apart a hundred flowers
Just to be quiet
Tell me when you feel ready
I'm the one, there's not too many
Hold my hand to keep me steady
Just to be quiet

I could wait a thousand hours
Stay the same in sun and showers
Pick apart a hundred flowers
Just to be quiet
Tell me when you feel ready
I'm the one, there's not too many
Hold my hand to keep me steady
Just to be quietWith you

This 4 year obsession

2010-01-04T02:54:00.000-08:00

STILL isn't over.

Old School

2009-12-30T10:23:00.001-08:00

Epic and I mean this to the full extent of the word, EPIC day out today with Alexanderr. It had been almost 6 whole goddamn months since we had a proper day out together and this was a real smile maker.

Started with the usual stroll down town, followed by a catch up session at Far East filled with plenty and of new stories, past memories and future plans. Then we went up top for my favourite Beef Flied Lice. Yummmmmmmmmmy. Wipes drool away, oops. Anyway, went window shopping after and to my total amazement Alex still can shop like a girl. I mean that in a total complimental way. And Yes, I do realise complimental is not a word but it fits the situation perfectly.

"What to do, I dont know"

Cleopatra Step a-side

2009-12-30T05:30:00.000-08:00

Took a trip to the National Museum today with Shikin, Zack & Kahar. I know, random right? But well equipped with a camera in one hand and a cigg in the other we went to look at the Egyptian Exhibit- It was filled with Hieroglyphiced scribes, Ancient Tombs & no duh, Mummies. Well Mummie- Singular! I wish i lived back in those times but as like a Queen. You know, all donned with gold and having perfect cat-eyed eyeliner. Everything was so beautiful. The myths, the sculptures, the Gods & all. No wonder Caesar was infatuated.

After the trip back to Ancient Egypt we went to the Paranakan Museum. Explored for a while whilst Shikin caused a major- MAJOR disturbance with her camera. LOL

Next came dinner at Pasta Mania followed by a total arse whooping at pool. Obviously the arse whoopin was not given by me for i sucked. Actually sucked is an absolute understatement in this case. Lets look at the facts. Games I played= 5, games I won= 2- Both won by default due to the boys potting the black ball accidentally. I'm British I should be the ultimate Goddess of Pool but no.

Basically fabulously random day.

Bleach

2009-12-28T09:43:00.000-08:00

Today has truly been one of the best days i've had in a very long time. Yes DAY. I actually went out in the daytime. The sun was shining, the birds were chirping, the trees were...uhm...doing what trees do? Swaying i guess? Anyway i didnt really pay that much attention to the trees but thats not the point and i think im going off track, just a bit.

Met the ever wonderful, sarcastic, hilarious Ms Phiri today to have one last hangout before she leaves back to her South Africa. Sean joined too which was a great investment because he just got paid & so he decided that we were well worth his money. WOW. I just made me and Ruth sound like prostitutes ok. To be clear, me and ruth are not..i repeat..are not prostitutes and by 'well worth his money' I meant he paid for pretty much everything because we are like Fabulous?

We first just hung around town. Ran into my Alex =] Awwwwwwww Alex. We have just discovered our mutual love for Josh William Beech, ahh, sexiness connecting people everywhere. Anywho we went back to doing the usual things before we went to see Avatar at Cine. Who btw is damn sexy, (the blue one, not the white guy-even though they are the same guy. I think i have a thing for tall, lanky guys, either that or blue ones? oh i dont know. Maybe it's a new fetish of mine) Anywho, we hung more- contemplated getting fake tattoos- Sean, a Hello Kitty on his Ass and I, Lips on my neck. But realization of how stupid we would look hit us and we decided it might not be the best idea. So we decided to watch another movie, Sherlock Holmes down at The Cathay. Jude Law + Robert Downey Jr = AHMAFAKINGGODORGAZMZZZZTOTHEMAX. Afterwards, we said fair well to Sean Sugar Daddy and Ruth & I met up with Taz n his friend.

Ended the night by walking Ruth back to her hotel, said our final goodbyes and i got whizzed off home in a cab. At which point i was pretty shattered and ready to collapse in bed.

When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?

2009-12-26T22:25:00.000-08:00

If I dont think about it, it wont affect me. Out of sight- out of mind, out of mind- out of emotion.

That's how it works right?

Hoe, Hoe, Hoe.

2009-12-26T10:01:00.000-08:00

Vanity was always my favourite Sin

Glamour was always my favourite Weapon

Revenge was always my favourite Crime

Envy was always my favourite Poison

Love was always my favourite Hate

Fame was always my favourite Motive

It's quite strange how alone I feel. I've lost a lot of friends in the past but they never had an effect on my life so never did I give a second thought about it. But now i've lost friends that actually meant something to me. It's weird not to feel the security I once felt. It's actually quite scary. You're friend count doesn't mean anything.

Keep your Coins, I want Change.

2009-12-26T08:46:00.000-08:00

If there is one thing I will never understand about you its how you always manage to reverse a situation and manage to either a) blame me for things, making you look like the innocent party and me look like I've just committed 2 murders, 3 bank robberies and a hit & run or b) convince yourself that you are right. Always have been, always are and always will be.

Another thing I noticed is that you're pretty good at making ideas look like they were all yours from the start and that i had nothing to do with them. Even thought they kinda were all 100% mine. Oh bloody hell, another one just came to me. Silly me how could I forget.. You believe you have the power to solve and control every situation, even though your idea of solving/controlling is to just say what you want and not let me have my say at all. Oh and why stop here, and this is a real kicker...ready? You have fully assured yourself that you actually know me. HA. Boy you don't know me, you have no idea about me.

Oh Holy Hell. Since we are on the topic and more reasons keep coming to me I would just like to say how it never ceases to amaze me how you can do ALL THE ABOVE in one phone call, i repeat, ONE phone call.

Brava Romeo.

Photographs

2009-12-26T08:31:00.000-08:00

New Song Obsession.

Photographs
Rihannah ft Will.I.Am

Here’s a little story I’ve gotta tell
Bout this boy I know so well
Back in the day was cool and all
Fell in love, I fell in love
Thought he was the one for me
Other boys I could not see
And look what happened to our love
I’m like how could it be?

It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Boy you broke my heart and now I’m standing here
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Now all I got are these photographs

All I’ve got, all I’ve got
All I’ve got are these photographs
All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you

Now baby it’s killing me
I’m saying it’s killing me
The fact that you went around
Baby I’m falling down
I need me a remedy
Been looking for remedies
I need you to be around
Baby I’m hurting now
I know you’re a better man
When I was your girl
This land is a better land
When you’re in my world
Today will be better babe
If it were like yesterday
So happy and lovely hey, hey, hey

All I’ve got, all I’ve got
All I’ve got are these photographs
All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you, you, you
Got nothing without you

All I’ve got are these photographs
I remember when I used to make you laugh
I don’t wanna be stuck in the past
But you’re all that I have that I had
And I don’t wanna lose what we built this far
This is me and you, you’re my superstar
I’d give anything, baby here’s my heart
My heart, my heart…

(Will.i.am)
My heart don’t stop, my heart be beating over
My loving never stop, even though that it’s over
Girl I’ve been reminiscing when I play that Casanova
Way back when we was kissing on your granmomma’s sofa
Girl I got this lovey dovey o my photo album
I got them pictures back when I was rocking Calvin Klein
You had your Guess jeans on looking sexy, oh no
Girl why could it not be the one?

Why? Why? Why?
Why couldn't I be the one?
Why? Why? Why?
Why couldn’t you be the one?
Why? Why? Why?
Why couldn’t you be the one?
Why? Why? Why?

All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you
All I’ve got, all I’ve got
Is nothing without you, you, you,
Is nothing without you, you, you,
Is nothing without you

All I've got, is nothing without...

All I've got, is nothing without...

All I've got, all I've got are these photographs

Oh Whipped.

2009-12-25T04:47:00.000-08:00

Jamie Oliver- Step aside. Nigella Lawson- Who needs ya? Bring on the magical kitchen wonders of Shikin, Julia & Kate.

Today was fan-cooking-tastic. The girls got together to make a meal for the guys and a spectacular meal too, even if i say so myself. Le Menu goes as followed.

Poison of Choice-Wine
First Course: Salad with marinated Calamari and Prawn, flambeed tomatoes and lemon.
Main: Linguine & Macaroni served with Pasta sauce, fried Dori fish and Parmesan cheese
Desert: Strawberries, blueberries & kiwi, served with melted chocolate and icing sugar. oh and you can't forget the whipped cream.

It was such a cute day, hanging with the girls in the afternoon. Food shopping @ Downtown east, cooking @ Shikins place then lastly ending up at Pasir ris park for a picnic with the boys. Photos are dread full so they will not be making an appearance on unkrypted any time soon. A little too much wine caused me to go a little loco- but in a merry way. After all it is the season to be jolly. ;]

Falalalala..lala..la..la

Roarrrr; I'm a lion.

2009-12-21T02:53:00.000-08:00

Sunday was a very long & a very exhausting, but a truly good day out indeed. And by good I mean insanely hot, smelly and semi factual.

Had an early start at 9am and took an unexpected trip to the Singapore Zoo. I know, the Marshalls Day Out right? Who would have guessed my mother and father actually cared about el zoo? I was surprised myself until when upon leaving my mother said, im not going back there ever again-ever. Ahh well, I just like the Cats, Snakes & the embarrassment felt when you see animals mating..and you realise you parents are standing right next to you watching the same thing.

After the zoo, Adalayyyy came picked me up and we headed for dinner. I thought I would be absolutely amazing & pay. Thats right batchas, i paid, but adalayy put in a fiver. We went to lepak at the new cool hangout place Upper Pierce Reservoirs FTW. Went home and found my parents missing- later found out they were severely drunk & karaoke-ing.

Later on met up with Raul -could there be a hotter name? Bet you $10 you can't guess where we went. Starts with a P and ends with an ierce Reservoir. Hung with Barrons, Redbull & Nexts. Laid in the grass while helping Mr Bartender learn how to make a Missletoe-tini, Christmas Jones & a Red Rudolf.

Home. Bed. Sleep.

The letter.

2009-12-18T03:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Taz,
Between Tabrij Ahmed Jobaer and You

Kate Hannah Marshall December 18 at 1:31am
I'm happy you can finally go and persue the right kind of love now. I just wish you would have told me sooner about everything that was going on. They say 'you don't know what you've got till its gone'. I hope you realise that I made a mistake and as soon as I lost you I realised and tried to get you back but it was too late and that's my problem-I have to live with it. You're a messed up guy and im a messed up girl. We have so many things going on with our lives right now and we have too many issues which clash. All I can do is wish you well. Good luck with your life- love, work, everything. But just promise me that you will change, start caring about other people and other people will care about you. Just don't mess with me, play around with me, lead me on with your actions and words because i will fall again but this time i wont be able to get back up. I guess the roles have reversed and I am fucked. Good luck,So long.Kate Marshall ♥

Zouk Out

2009-12-14T22:59:00.000-08:00

Saturday Night- ZOUKOUT BITCHES.

10 hours of continuous Music, Drinks, Friends, Cigs & Sand. Ran into long lost people & missed out on seeing some long lost friends.

Started out the night by sitting in a taxi for an hour trying to get onto Sentosa closly followed by Champaign in the carpark, vodka on the void, bacardi on the boardwalk & beer on the beach.

After a while things got BUSY. Danced around in Wavehouse. Met a really nice guy & when to the restricted area x] pssh. DONT THINK NAUGHTY THOUGHTS. I'm a good girl. Faked a called to meet back with Shikin to go to Armin Van Buuren! Ran into Bakram- owwww yeah & Adam- pwahhhh & then the night went on..

Money is now extremely low meaning ima be MIA for a while, a LONG while, a LONG LONG while.

Open fire

2009-12-06T19:02:00.000-08:00

I want your leather studded kiss in the sand.

2009-12-06T07:46:00.000-08:00

I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it.

If you're stupid enough to walk away; I'm smart enough to let you go.

2009-11-29T02:31:00.001-08:00

Main Entry: detestable
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: loathsome, abominable
Synonyms: abhorred, abhorrent, accursed, atrocious, awful, despicable, disgusting, execrable, godawful, grody, gross*, hateable, hateful, heinous, horrid, lousy, low-down, maggot, monstrous, obnoxious, odious, offensive, outrageous, repugnant, repulsive, revolting, rotten, shocking, sorry, vile

That's what you are. No, actually you're worse than detestable. You're the utter most selfish person I have ever met. Not only do you take advantage of people but you believe that the world solely revolves around you. Stringing people along until you need to use them. It's a simple case of 'use & abuse' & you're the epitome of it.

If you're Stupid enough to walk away; I'm smart enough to let you go

My Baby.

2009-11-29T02:29:00.001-08:00

I gotst myself a new phone & let me just say, It is a real beauty.

Josh GODDAMN Beech

2009-11-25T00:10:00.000-08:00

I realise i havn't said anything but;
Need i say more?

Looking Good is the Best revenge.

2009-11-24T22:51:00.001-08:00

& so it shall be. What's done is done. What's gone is gone. Life doesn't stop for anyone. <3

Entwined

2009-11-23T05:18:00.000-08:00

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine

Bad Romance.

2009-11-18T01:10:00.000-08:00

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you're sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don’t wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Good Ol' British Humour.

2009-11-18T00:54:00.002-08:00

KATE.MARSHALL. We need to meet up, it has been like years, i am getting withdrawl symptoms! What are you doing thursday? Nothing you say? Great! We are now meeting up at some point... And if you are in class i hope youre phone goes off really loud with one of ur rude ringtones :)
Sophie Fletcher
17-Nov-2009
12:60

Ah, I love that Girl.

The Ultimatum.

2009-11-11T05:09:00.000-08:00

I said; Friends or Nothing
You said; Relationship or Nothing.

In the end, The choice was clear.

19/08/09 - 12/11/09 & finally 24/11/09

Whoop Vamp.

2009-11-07T07:15:00.000-08:00

Falling.

but I have a feeling you're not.

My love life, in Lyrics.

2009-11-06T00:49:00.000-08:00

Ne-Yo. Round & Round.

Baby when we first met
It was kind of fly that I couldn't predict your mood
Said I could never guess (so) and it was the best (so)
Not like any other dude
But I don't know man, I don't know man, I don't know man
I don't really really know
But before my eyes I saw the good you leave
And the bad you start to show

And I just can't take it (can't take it)
No I just can't take it (No)
So we ain't gon make it (ain't gon make it)
This is relationship and gon make it (no)

I'm tired of all this Round and Round we go
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right
So round & round we go
While I decided don't wanna ride anymore
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & Round
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & around and around
Round & Round we go, round and round we go

round and round we go
Don't get excited anymore when you're sweet to me
Because I know one, two, three minutes later
You'll be right back to being mean
It's flowers on a Monday,
Tuesday you're hating me
Wednesday's makeup sex is so amazing
What will you be Thursday, will it be friendly
or will I again be sleeping with the enemy
Thought So

Round and Round we go
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right
So round & round we go
While I decided don't wanna ride anymore
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & Round & Round
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & around and around
Round & Round we go, round and round we go

look at me, look at me, so damn dizzy
Tryina keep, tryina keep, trying to keep up with you
Baby you're Doctor Jeckyll and Mister Hyde
Slowly ruining my life for me
Baby I don't need you
Round and Round we go, Round & Round we go
Round and Round we go
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right
So round & round we go
While I decided don't wanna ride anymore
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round & around & around
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round and around and around
Round & Round we go, round and round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round and around and around
Round & Round we go
I'm sick and tired of you taking me Round and around and around
Round & Round we go, round & round we go

The Thrill of the Chase.

2009-11-05T08:08:00.000-08:00

Ok. Now is time for the mega guy bitchfest. Starting in 3, 2, sorry i can't wait.

So, he thinks he's Mr Perfect while he's telling me whats 'wrong' with me. Uhmm I don't think so. Telling me to change won't make me want to, infact it will make me want to do the opposite. The part that pisses me off is his selfishness. Sometimes all he did was care about himself and what he wanted. Mr One minute I love you. One minute I hate you.

& he's just an insey winsey bit paranoid. SCRATCH THAT. VERY paranoid. Who's that guy you were talking too? Who are you texting? Stop texting him okay? Ok to be honest i did kinda like that. It showed me he cared but when it comes to the point of telling me NOT to text one of my close friends thats when it because annoying. & what is it with guys trying to make you jealous? Either he truely was doing it to make me jealous like he says or he was being serious in what he was saying. I guess i'll never know. Here are a few cases taken out of the Jealousy File.

Case numero uno. The facebook relationship Status change. xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxx is now in a relationship with xxxxx xxxxxxx. "I dont like her. I did it because u pissed me off & never came to meet me when I wanted you too"

Case numero dos. The I-wanna-fuck-your-friend idea. "Why else do you think I asked her to hook up with me & tell her not to tell you. Of course she is going to tell you. She's your best friend. I just wanted to make you jealous"

Case numero tres. The 'Hey Girls, How you doin' incident. "Ha, you really think i would go for them? You were giving your number to that guy..I had to do something so you would know how it makes me feel seeing like that with guys. I wanted to make you jealous"
Can anybody see my point here?

He's not fully to blame. It takes two to Tango and I added more fuel to the fire.

I'm the kinda girl that likes the thrill of the chase & when i finally get what i want..i dont want it anymore. It's Simple. Whether that'll change about me or not i'll have to see. I dont know how to change that about me. I can't help that about me! Im sorry but it's just like as soon as i get something i want i either realise a) It wasnt as good as it looked b) I get totally bored c) I find something better or d) I just like being the girl whose causes trouble. But talking to a friend of mine has made me think that i'm just not ready for a relationship. I need to grow up, mature. He said he went through the same thing at my age and got out of it when he was 21 & i realised i will get out of this phase. I just dont think it's anything i can control right now.

I'll do what i want, when i want & there is nothing you can do to stop me.

I'm a Drinker; not a Fighter.

2009-11-05T07:41:00.001-08:00

WOW. So much to catch up on. Well not really. Just been doing the same boring things with the same un-boring people. But on the otherhand uni has been ow so FABULOUS. Made some new friends who I went clubbing with on wednesday & can i just say for the record Butterfactory is Wa Da Fa awesome & St. James Powerhouse (well, what I can remember of it) is very uuhhm Drop Dead Wew.

Let's start at the begining.
26th October. School. My time table is so slack. I have Thursdays off which i believe is a personal sign from god..(or just the school co-ordinater) that I should you my boobs to their full advantage & go to Ladies night. Hallelujah. Anywho. Got some fitties in my class. pwahhh. Fit as Fuck I swear.

28th October. Moved house. I am now no longer a Kovan/Serangoon girl but a...... HA. As if i'm gonna put online where i stay now. You have got to be kidding me. Room is starting to look like a room & not a wearhouse full of boxs.

4th November. Butterfactory & St. James.
I was a Butterfact & St. J Virgin untill yesterday. I got soo wasted. Like everybody shut up or i'm going to be sick wasted. Had 12 glasses of Alcohol. 4 Vodka Sprites, 3 Orange n Chivas, 2 Whisky n Cokes and 3 glasses of God knows what. Not a pretty sight. All i remember was trying to get the German guys number. Having some guy 'WOW' my boobs. Trying to get into Powerhouse, but failing & talking to Paris guy. I bet i made a great impression on the class mates though. o.O All i have to say is uni is going to be pretty interesting tomorrow.

;]

Alcohol Tollerence.

2009-10-24T21:39:00.001-07:00

For the past week i have been out a total number of 4 times & i also know that i said "We're getting Wasted/Drunk/Fucked-up" about 4000 more times. But did we get 'wasted/drunk/fucked up? NO.

How can this be? I dont know...why don't you ask my blood system why it's so hard to take the little alcohol particles or molecules or whatever the fuck you call them and dissolve it or diffuse it into my cells. Thats right bitches im getting scientifically.

I'm not going.

2009-10-23T04:52:00.000-07:00

UNIVERSITY ON MONDAY.
- Kate Hannah Marshall will be a University Student.

When did this happen?

Love Vs Weight.

2009-10-23T04:22:00.000-07:00

What the fuck is wrong with guys? Why do they want you to be so perfect? They would do anything to change you without even the slightest consideration about how you feel or maybe thats just me and my situations.

"Kate, Straighten your hair"- How about no

"Kate, Go to the gym"- uhhmm na, i think i'll pass

"Kate, Don't wear makeup"- Hell no sound familiar?

The one thing I dont think guys realise is girls want to be loved for who they are & when guys come and try and change them they feel the opposite. Ughhh Why do guys want the perfect girl anyway? To show off to their friends? It shouldn't matter what other people think about the relationship. It all depends on the two people in the relationship. Obviously.

Rant to be continued.

oooooooooh. Your Sex is on Fire.

2009-10-16T19:47:00.001-07:00

I know, i'm lame. But i'm in love & have photoshop.

Because 2 can keep a Secret; When one of us is DEAD.

2009-10-16T19:39:00.000-07:00

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

Why do you smile
Like you have told a secret
Now you're telling lies
Cause you're the one to keep it
But no one keeps a secret
No one keeps a secret
Why when we do our darkest deeds
Do we tell?
They burn in our brains
Become a living hell
Cause everyone tells
Everyone tells…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

Look into my eyes
Now you're getting sleepy
Are you hypnotized
By secrets that you're keeping?
I know what you're keeping
I know what you're keeping

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

[spoken]
Alison?
Yes, Katherine.
I have something I want to tell you, but
you have to promise to never tell anyone.
I promise
Do you swear on your life?
I swear on my life

[end spoken]

You swore you'd never tell…
You swore you'd never tell…

You swore you'd never tell…
You swore you'd never tell…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…
(chorus x 3)

Yes two can keep a secret
If one of us is…. Dead.

Alcohol, Some of the Best Times, You'll Never Remember.

2009-10-12T09:17:00.001-07:00

I haven't gotten drunk in a VERY long time & therefore I only feel that it is necessary to indeed get drunk this weekend. Not only is the lack of drunkenness a reason to drink but this weekend may in fact be my last weekend out. Wanna know why? Cos i- Kate Hannah Marshall will be a university student come the 26th of October. I have orientation next week! Awesomeeee.

& starting a new school means I have to buy a whole new 'school appropriate' wardrobe. No Boobs. =o Shocking I know. Well, we all know what this means...Shopping.

I just wish that one day, someone would take me out & buy me everything I wanted. I mean EVERYTHING.

One Sexy Mofoka.

2009-10-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

I think I've got a lesbian obsession with that Fabulous woman above. Angelina Jolie. Those lips, those eyes, that mysterious persona. Epitome of Sex.

Well Guess Life Happened.

2009-10-08T05:54:00.000-07:00

Looks like ive totally lost you as a friend. Well guess life happened. Nothing new
- Nikita De Souza

LOVE what she put as her Facebook Status. I am tempted to put it as mine but untill then, on my blog is shall be.

Cold Charisma, Shotgun Wedding.

2009-10-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

Baby, baby. When we first met.I never felt something so strong.You were like my lover.And my best friend.All wrapped into one.With a ribbon on it.And all of a sudden.You went, left.I didn't know how to follow.It's like a shot.That spun me around.And now my heart left.I feel so empty and hollow.And I'll never give myself to another.The way I gave it to you.Don't even recognize.The ways you hurt me.Do you?.It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back.And you're the one to blame.And now I feel like, oh.You're the reason.Why I'm thinking.I don't wanna smoke on.These cigarettes no more.I guess that's what I get.For wishful thinking.I should've never let you enter my door.Next time you wanna go on and leave.I should just let you go on and do it.Cause now I'm using like I believe.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.Damn, Ain't it crazy when you're love swept?.You'll do anything for the one you love.'Cause anytime that you needed me.I'd be there.It's like you were my favorite drug.The only problem is.That you was using me.In a different way that I was using you.But now that I know, it's not meant to be.You gotta go, I gotta win myself off of you.And I'll never give myself to another.The way I gave it to you.Don't even recognize.The ways you hurt me.Do you?It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back.And you're the one to blame.And now I feel like, oh.You're the reason.Why I'm thinking.I don't wanna smoke on.These cigarettes no more.I guess that's what I get.For wishful thinking.I should've never let you enter my door.Next time you wanna go on and leave.I should just let you go on and do it.Cause now I'm using like I believe.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.Now ladies, gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.Oh, now gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.Now ladies, gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.Oh, now gimme that.Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh.OhYou're the reason.Why I'm thinking.I don't wanna smoke on These cigarettes no more.I guess that's what I get.For wishful thinking.I should've never let you enter my door.Next time you wanna go on and leave.I should just let you go on and do it.Cause now I'm using I believe.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.It's like I checked into rehab and.Baby, you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease.I gotta check into rehab.'Cause baby you're my disease

Gotta check into Rehab, Baby You're my Disease.

2009-10-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking for the past 2 days & I've come to the conclusion that I'm feeling like this because-

A- You were the one that said "It's finished, it's over" & not me.

B- I only want you because I can't have you.

or C- I honestly do love you. =/

Ugh. I hate that word, let me just be sick & i'll be right back.

Taboo

2009-10-01T07:29:00.000-07:00

Is it really so difficult to tell a good action from a bad one? I think one usually knows right away or a moment afterward, in a horrid flash of regret.
-Mary McCarthy

Regret is an emotion I can't help but feel. People say, "Don't look back at the past. Think towards the future", Is that possible? How can people turn off different parts of their emotions on command? How can you not help but remember the bad things you've done & how can you forget the things you wish never happened?

Ughh. I'm starting to get sick of this scene.
I need a new start to life.

I'm gonna take a break for a while.

похоть & зависти

2009-09-26T09:53:00.000-07:00

The Aquarian's chilly rationality upsets the sentimental moonchild, who craves intense emotion. These two signs are so alien to one another their relationship practically develops an allergic rash on contact. Aquarius values reality; Cancer trusts only intuition. Soon misunderstanding has settled in, widening the gap in the couple. In this struggle, the broken heart is always that of the moonchild. Be forewarned and proceed at your own risk: the stars frown on any union of these two signs.

On a lighter Note..

You’ll identify with — and fall in love with — those born between 9 February and 18 February. You’ll have great friendships with these people; their zaniness is attractive, in a weird and wonderful way — they’re just different enough. They are also far more likely than other Aquarians to have relatively settled lifestyles. This gives you the best of both worlds – excitement and a bit of stability.

La cocaina no es buena para su salud

2009-09-24T01:11:00.000-07:00

I DON'T FUCKING GET IT.
..Just when I think there is something there
....& that everything, for once in my life, is going perfect
......You change EVERYTHING and push me back to square 1
.........I dont understand you. Never have and I dont think I ever will.

Dass effect to the fullest.
-lets just say I think I have a little too much smoke in my lungs for the time being. I need to let it all out & breath normally again.

He broke into my Heart.

2009-09-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

Once in a house on a hill
A boy got angry
He broke into my heart
For a day and a night
I stayed beside him
Until I had no hope
So I came down the hill
Of course I was hurt
But then I started to think

It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

There's a bar by the dock
Where I found myself
Drinking with this man
He offered me a cigarette
And I accepted
'Cause it's been a very long time
As it burned 'till the end
I thought of the boy
No one could ever forget

It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself

1 Tequila, 2 Tequila, 3 Tequila, Floor

2009-09-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

Went to Social house dressed as school girls with Laura n Elise on Wednesday. LOL. Was fun, except for looking after the drunken. =/ Ahhhh well things got better as the night went on. Ended up getting home just intime to say goodbye to the parentals. They're going away for a while & I'm home all alone x]

Grace & her boy Adam came over today, chilled at the Coffee Shop below me. Locals Loh.

Anywhooooooooooo Amazing Lyrics.

Secret Smile- Semisonic

Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it
Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing
But you can save me from madness

Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So save me I'm waiting
I'm needing, hear me pleading
And soothe me, improve me
I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now, now

When you are flying
around and around the world
And I'm lying alonely
I know there's something
sacred and free reserved
And received by me only